Memoirs of a confused mind

for wat?

sitting at the lobby a sudden sense of isolation overwhelmed me. Even though there were hundreds of pple walking around and about but it seems like the whole world had left me out.Groups sit and talk among themselves, groups that i dont belong to and fit in at all.It was only then i realised that pple i can talk to are not around, not because they are not there but either they are busy with other things or are just not around anymore.I tried breaking into the groups but all i get is a brickwall response, a shot thru the heart with a poison arrow.For wat am i doing this?wouldnt it be better to be free from all responsibilities and able to fit in.Why carry all the burden and find myself getting brickwall responses.

Invisible among a sea of pple.The fact remains that i am there and alive, yet i feel like i wasnt.

Sure,
i couldnt mingle around
i couldnt be there all the time
i am the one to ask you guys to come down for things u dont wanna come for
i am the one to nag
i am the one to wake you up when u needed sleep most

i am so sick and tired of doing this job in a place where no one appreciates anything.In this world where everything is about glory and about pple who seems more fun.I am the one to break up all the fun and find no pride in anything i do anymore.

i am losing my fucking sanity

save me

posted by haoz @ 8/11/2006 11:19:00 PM