Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Some of the endearing terms in the army....

sabo king:the one who screws up the plan,most disliked person in the platoon.

occifer:screwed up officer

occifer cadet:screwed up officer cadet

la sai:to stir shit,to create trouble for others

ORD loh!!:to finish one's NSF liability and convert to civilianship

BoBo:someone who cannot shoot

topo:to navigate

horlan/go holland:getting lost while topo-ing

chao keng:to eat snake

smoke out:to throw a smoke grenade so that enemy cannot see u OR to disappear when theres work to be done

cat 1:inclement weather OR no training

sai kang:jobs handed down by superiors that are unpleasant

arrow:to be appointed as the person to the the saikang

kkj and lcb:something yr bmt platoon sgt scolds all the time

extras:duties that u sign because of mistakes made,usually performed on weekends or public holidays

tts all the time i have for now...more coming upz

Imagine going to tampines mall on a hot monday evening and all u want is to spend a good evening having a good dinner and go home to sleep without burning a hole in yr pocket.However,our gf/wife gets conned into the sk 2 roadshow and in the end,spends $400 on skin care products that originated from the water used to wash rice.

Yupz,thats wat happened today at the sk2 roadshow,pple coming to spend $400 in just 10 mins,crazy asses.One small bottle costs like $90,tts like extortion to the max manz.Did have fun today though,made a few new friends and also chao keng here and there,courtesy of mr kenneth yong..hahaha.Finished work at like 11 and boy,was i tired.Good money though but too bad i only working for 1 day.

Had no signboard seafood for dinner last night.Chilli crabz were so so but the cereal prawns were fantabulous and fabustic.Also went to eat tau huey after that and we saw this lambor there driven by a very old man with some china prostitute in his car.Managed to take a pic with it...wishing it was mine....


how i wish it was my lambor there...but it belongs to a really old guy who shudden drive a lambor cause he mie die of a heart attack any second Posted by Hello


me,kow and bday risshe..still crabbinz and prawninz Posted by Hello


aud,ken,moi...crabbingz Posted by Hello

Sunday, May 29, 2005

We had a surprised party for risshe last night and man was it a blast.

The taxi fare to mount faber:$16.70

The cost of the party(according to audrey):$3000

The look on risshe's face when he realised its a bday party:Priceless!!!


Haha...good food,good music but just too little booze but it was fun nvtheless...

Went geylang for supper with kow brian and ben after that and met risshe they all there also..haha so coincidental...maybe ah kow was meant to meet someone...haha

Anyway,here are some pics to savour over from the party...


i've got a hoegaardeninmy hand... Posted by Hello


the idiotic gang acting idiotic and brian is still as irritating...hahhaah Posted by Hello


risshe's cake and us... Posted by Hello


acting stupid  Posted by Hello


instructors united...me taking the pic Posted by Hello


doing communtity service at bright hill home...drinking newater  Posted by Hello

Finally got down to writing sth after the camp.Had been to lazy to do so until now...hahaha
Really had a good time at the camp and didnt know the pl girls are so fun pple.Haha.
3c1 really rawk and i think i got the best class among all the instructors.

Dunno why i kept thinking about chilli crab thru out the camp,so much so that the other instructors also influenced by me.Haha..good thing odac taught me a few things last time.The camp really bring back alot of memories for me...memories of school and fun and not having to worry about pple back stabbing you in the back and stirring your shit all the time...haha

thank u pl and esp to the pit 35/3c1...u guys are the best!


Monday, May 23, 2005

Had been reading some interesting stories from www.spi.com.sg,the website of the singapore paranormal investigators and began wondering how come there are not much stories about seletar camp.My camp.It is the oldest army camp still in service and thus would definitely contains many spooks since it was rumoured that many buildings used to be used as a hospital during ww2.I am trying to collect some stories and facts about seletar camp and so if any of u have anything to contribute,pls do let me know.

Here is a little spooky story that i would like to share....

When i was first posted to seletar camp in 2004,i was stayin at blk 462 which was built in 1936(it was sculpted into the walls).It was a colonial building which is now serving as bunks to the good and wonderful people of HQ Coy 35 SCE.It was rumoured that it was once used as a hospital in ww2 and that a morgue was situated on level 3 of the building,just above the armskote.

I entered the morgue a few times to illegally hide some stores not under our inventories and upon entering it,u can feel the temperature drop a few degrees and that the air would suddenly become very thick and hard to breathe even though all the windows are opened.

However,my story has nothing to do with the morgue.

I was staying on the first level then,and without a latch,it was impossible to lock up my room.However,i never got anything stolen.I remember that it was a sunday night and i had just booked in.I was getting ready for a shower when my friends from the bunk next to mine came in and told me to return them $2.50 for the nasi lemak they bought for me on saturday morning jokingly.

I was pretty taken aback and this was the conversations that took place.

me: "wat nasi lemak?"

they: "dun keh keh lah..haha,we brought it to your bunk yesterday morning but u still sleeping,so we hanged it by your bedpost"

me: "huh?cant be leh,are u sure its me?maybe reuben lah...or maybe hansel(my bunk mates)"

they: "no no no...its you,its your face on your bed wearing that white singlet u wear to sleep"

me: "wat time was it?"

they: "around 715 am"

here comes the scary part...

me: "it cant be,at 715 am yesterday morning,i was at toapayoh eating breakfast with my (then)girlfriend"

they: "???"

and i also know for a fact my 2 bunkmates were also given long weekends and that they cant possibly be in cmap.

At that point,i thought that the 2 of them might be playing a prank on me,trying to scare me and i was expecting them to laugh and enjoy the scared look on my face.However,their expression turned serious and their cheerfulness was gone.I attempt to get them to admit to the prank but all they said was that its late and all of us should get some sleep.

Throughout my stay in 35,i got to know these 2 friends better.These 2 friends of mine are not known to be jokers.One is a staunch christian and would never joke about anything spirtiual and the other one is a serious(maybe too serious) officer who never would have came up with a prank like this.

I tried asking them a few times after that,but everytime i brought it up,they got serious and never commented on it.Till this day,wat they saw and who or wat was on my bed that morning remains a mystery.

I slept pretty soundly that night though it took me some time to get to sleep(it didnt help all my bunkmates didnt book in that nite and i slept alone).There was nuthin much more spooky about that bunk other than the occasional thump coming from the bunk adjacent to ours which was empty and locked.

I moved out of that bunk shortly after that incident to stay with the rest of the officers and that bunk was taken up by someone else.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Sometimes somethings are just never fair.

For 2 hrs last night in the FA Cup final,Man U was clearly the better team thru out,dominating the game and creating plenty of chances,alas not converting any of them.It thus went down to penalties and paul scholes missed the only penalty leading to arsenal winning.

I dun blame scholes for that miss,i actually admired his courage in stepping up to take the penalty and sorry for him because he missed.I dun blame him because he gave his all during a tiring match.

I am just disappointed with the way everything had turned out this season and as it draws to a close,i hope that the next season will be a better one.

Was at the nus open house yesterday afternoon.was there with rp cher and we went to engineering first and as much as i hate to say it but tt place feels like a funeral parlour.It felt like someone had died and a wake was being held.Went down to arts after that and signed up for arts camp and amid all the vibrancy and liveliness,went for 2 subject talks.

Was kinda embarrassed because i tot i was late for the econs talk at 4 and so was rushing there from engine and when i saw a full LT full of pple,i quickly rushed in and walked to any empty seats i can find.I then heard the lecturer say something like."better be late than never" and giggles from the crowd.I tot like wat the hell,i am like only 2 mins late.Only when i took my seat did i realised wat happened.The prev talk on socialogy was still on when i walked in but it was ending and thus i ended up making a fool of myself.argh!

Saturday, May 21, 2005

The debate rages on about whether male undergrads who had undergone National Service are immature and whether we are whiny.Seriously, I am not here to defend ourselves because maybe we are because it is obviously oblivion to us that we are behaving that way.I seriously hope though that the girls are just stereotyping becasue of a few guys,and frankly speaking,I think those guys are those that are spoilt brats even before the army,pampered by their mommy and daddy.They probably held posts in the army such as the chip counter at the cookhouse in risshe's camp,the clerk in cmpb who has to ask his mommy to carry his duffel bag for him because it is just too heavy,just to name a few.

Well,the real point of this posting is not to debate whether are we whiners and immature or not,because that might just be the plain unfortunate truth.However,I just hope they do not blame it on NS but the overall upbringing of a person.

No,SAF didnt pay me to write this.I just want people to know that not only did I enjoy my NS experience,it has made me a much much better person and that it would be shocking and saddening if it is the main reason that constitutes to immaturity in male undergrads because it is not,from the way i see it.

Thru NS,i,together with my whole cohort i believe, learnt things not just military but things about life which cant possibly make people immature in any sense.I learnt about politics(office that is),about responsibility and most importantly about people,because u have people from all walks of life in the army.

After spending 18 years of my life with people of the same level of academic platform and more or less people with a good social background,it is a culture shock to find that people from other backgrounds actually existed in Singapore.

3SG winnie oh signed on to earn money for her 7 year old son's education.She is only 25.

CPL raymond the medic is a big time bookie outsideand drives his own honda accord.

2SG larry has his own show company outside army.

LTA desmond fu became a millionaire at age 17.

Some people don't understand or speak basic english and madarin and hokkien is the only language they know.

Messboy gan is going thru divorce proceedings and has a 2 yr old kid.He is 20.

These are just some of the people i met while serving my NS and i would never had met these people in jc and definitely not if i had just went straight to uni without going thru NS.Talking to them and working with them opens up your world so much more and make u treasure what you have so much more.I really thank my NS experience for what it has taught me and it definitely made me more mature than immature and i believe it has done so for my whole cohort as well.

So,please don't say that NS has made us more immature because it didn't and it will not ever.



Friday, May 20, 2005

I cant wait for tmr to come simply because it is cup final day and also because Man U is in it and also because their opponent is arse-nal.

Man U 2-0Arsenal

Yeah!Glory Glory Man United

Thursday, May 19, 2005

So Anakin Skywalker turned to the dark side and became that plastically hideous Darth Vader.He made us think that he did it to save his wife,padme,from death.However,in the end,all of us knew that he did it for his own selfish agenda,which is to gain power and gain control of the whole galaxy(which will end in about five hundred and seventy six thousand million years anyway).

Conclusion?He is evil!

Come to think about it,which human being doesnt have their own selfish agenda.We want to believe we are living the jedi lifestyle of being good and righteous but seriously,even yoda has his own hidden agendas and he is just a movie character.That is a sucker punch huh!PPle,we are not as perfect as we think we are.Everything we do,no matter how "for others" it may be,in the end,it is also to satisfy our soul.Like helping someone in need,didn't we do that to make ourselves feel good also.Therefore theres no such thing as a selfless act,because we live in a selfish world.

Also,I cant help but sympathise with obi wan kenobi,because he trained anakin and treated him like a brother only for him to turn against his master.I truly understand how he feels because I too am faced with such a situation.

No,I am no master and I have no apprentice.However,i do have a friend who i have know for years.Together with one more fella,we used to be the best of pals thru school days,thru the age of innocence.Now,we have grown older,alike anakin did,and he realised his friends of years are not cool and hip anymore and just not interesting enough for him(just like how anakin felt towards the jedi council).He thinks that these friends of his are always nagging at him and he is tired of that(the friends did so because they cared and like anakin,he don't see the point).He starts hanging out with new,cool friends who are happening and who gave him endless fun(like how darth sidious promised anakin absolute power).In the end,pissing those friends who care about him most.

Well,the dark side is pretty acttractive i guess....sorry about your loss, obi wan....respect!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Zhihao(noun):1Zhihao is a sad and depressed person who is waiting for his one true love to come along and take his breath away.2Zhihao never seems to be able to be very friendly during first meeting due to his rather shy nature,this phenomenon is especially so when around girls.This leads them to think that he is arrogant when he is not.3Zhihao loves to type crap onto his blog,crap about how sucky his life is just because he doesn't have a girlfriend(refer to first meaning of Zhihao)4Zhihao is someone who often daydreams about picking up his future gf/wife after work in his nice car and cruising down the PIE towards a sumptous dinner while listening to class 95.5Zhihao can also mean a die hard Man U fan.6Zhihao is also often used as a more subtle alternative to loser,that guy is such a zhihao.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Pretty lousy post huh.Who the hell wanna knows my dietry habits anyway.I dunno,really no motivation to write on because i know that someone wont be reading it.Sorry to all those friends who does give a heck,i promise next week will be better.

One hell of a day because it is hellishlike hell.What am talking about??I am going nuts.Anyway,went swimming in the morning with kow and grace at some nice condo pool.Swimming was a bore and grace ended up talking to her friend instead and kow and me went on to do some childish stuff....things u'll never expet from a 21 yr old.But wat the heck, we r guys and tts wat u pple always say we r rite....childish.

1.We raced each other in the pool by walking from one end to the other.I cheated and won.haha

2.We did chin ups using the fountains.

3.We jumped into the pool like how kids do.

4.We jumped over each others head into the pool.

5.We rugby tackled each other into the pool.

6.We played with the sauna system and I ended up with a blurred vision and difficulty breathing.

We became kids again for 2 hrs.The times of being 12 or 13 came flooding back.No girl problems,no life problems,no money problems.We are kids.Though water got into my ear and i hated that,it was still an enjoyable time.Maybe being childish aint such a bad thing after all,at least i dont think of killing myself all the time.Just think about wat else to play next.

The days of buying ice pack after games to quench our thirst.

The days when the only girl problem was the one i have with my naggy mom.

The days when playing soccer under the hot sun at 1pm seems a good idea.

The days of saving up for one week so that i can have mcdonalds on saturday.

The days of playing catching around the void decks.

The days of spending my whole day playing street fighter at hougang mall arcade with e 2 dollars i found on the floor.

The days of innocence,the days of fun,the days of growing up.

Well,next time when life gets u down and times gets tough for u.Become a child again and i assure u ,u'll feel better.

tuesdays with haoz:Chapter 6....Bon Appetit!


I like to eat.No.I love to eat..Eating is a joy and eating makes me feel good.There are many things that i enjoy eating.However,alot of wat i enjoy eating are not really appreciated by others.Therefore,everything i get to eat alot of good food becasue alot of my friends would kindly give up their share to me.Well,although i eat alot,i dont seem to get fat.I can hear some pple wanting to kill me already but do hear me out.Eat heathy and eat right and also at the right times too and then excercise alot to burn the fats off.Thats my secret.So today,i am gonna talk about food and how not to get fat from eating them.


1.I think i got a super hyper metabolic rate,maybe thats why i can burn off all the fats so fast and maybe thats why i am hungry all the time and also why i am so full of shit,literally.So having to shit all the time may not be such a bad thing after all.So take consolation if u r like me.

2.Eat at the correct times.Have small meals thru out the day instead of whacking alot of lunch and dinner.Doing that will mean big lunch u had wont have time to finish its digestion before u attack your dinner.Therefore eat a good breakfast,have some thing else light 2 hrs before lunch,have a not too heavy lunch(because u are not that hungry),then at around 3 or 4,u'll start to feel hungry from the light lunch,so eat alittle bit of food then.Then by the time u have dinner,dinner wont be that heavy also.Have supper light for supper and u are on your way to lose weight.For those who sleep till late and breakfast is non existant to them,too bad for u i guess...either get up early or get fat...your choice.

3.Enough about keeping your weight down.Now comes the yummy part.The food i like and why i like them.Haha,first on the menu is of course prawns.I love prawns and thats no secret.Anyone that has ever eaten steamboat with me before will know that i do not eat anything else but the prawns and the crabs.I can eat up to 50 over prawns one shot.I will just sit there and peel off the shell,suck out the jucie and eat and eat and eat.I dunno whats so nice about prawns anyway,its just fantastic.The best part is,alot of people find sheeling prawns troublesome and thus end up not eating their prawns.What a pity.If u are my friend then u wouldnt be wasting your prawn cause i would eat them for u...haha.

4.I love crabs too.In pretty much the same way as prawns.I like them with chilli,with black pepper...hard shelled or soft shelled.I even love the roe.Its so juicy and tasty.

5.Fishes.I love to eat fish.But there is one drawback,the bones.It makes eating fish so much more troublesome becasue u have to be very careful.However,the correct fish cooked the correct way is a gourment wonder.However,i only like fishes on my pate,cooked.I don't like those swimming in a tank becasue they stink.

6.SEE HUM!!!!Alot of people hates this and i dunno why.It is a delicacy.Yes,it causes hepititis but come on,chicken causes chicken flu too.Open the shell...suck out the flesh and enjoy the sweetness and juciness of it all.Just remember to spit it out if it tastes fnny becasue that means it ain't fresh.Since many peopl hates see hum,especially my friends,i always get their share when eating laksa,so thanks guys!!!hahaha

7.Veggies.I love my greens and orange and yellow...argh...i love my veggies.Tomatoes,cucumbers,lettuces and even brocolli.I know u guys hates them but hey,they taste good to me and keeps me heathy.Tomatoes are my faves.Juicy and soft.Mmmm.mm.Haha

Haiz...guess i wanna stop here...i know this has been a crap chapter but i really am too tired to think of something today.Whats the point anyway...some pple wont be here to read it...

Monday, May 16, 2005

i hate lonliness
i hate people who push the door open even when the sign says pull
i hate PRCs
i hate PRC tv programs
i hate taiwanese tv programs
i hate bah kwa
i hate rich spoilt brats
i hate girls who plays with guy's feelings
i hate guys who play with girls's feelings
i hate chelsea
i hate young punks who smoke and waste their already pathetic life away by doing bicycle sstunts at tampines mall
i hate drivers who thinks they own the road
i hate losing my things
i hate extras
i hate the times when i have too much time but no money to do anything
i hate the days when everything just goes wrong
i hate to be out of love
i hate to be out of money
i hate to be out of time
i hate exams
i hate regrets
i hate toilets that don't flush properly
i hate to clean weapons
i hate to chiong sua
i hate myself



i love to eat
i love to sleep
i love to watch movies
i love to watch tv
i love to surf net
i love to play soccer
i love manchester united
i love money
i love music
i love my family
i love my friends(not in that kinda way)
i love to be lame
i love to be called a loser
i love to slack
i love to talk
i love to drive
i love to look at nice cars
i love to dream that those nice cars i look at are mine
i love to daydream
i love mango
i love apples
i love rojak
i love see hum
i love coke
i love salads
i love the simpsons
i love to rummage thru my fridge in the middle of the night
i love to be loved
i love to love
i love xiao ding dang
i love 35 sce
i love seletar camp
i love u...

Love and hate....2 extremes of emotions.There are a million and one thins which i could love and hate but i have not listed them down because love and hate are somethings that are hard to understand.Love can easily turn to hate but hate can hardly ever turn into loveWhatever it is...hopefully my hate list will shrink and my love list will grow and wish the same for everyone becasue it makes one happier to love and depress to hate...

i hate lonliness
i hate people who push the door open even when the sign says pull
i hate PRCs
i hate PRC tv programs
i hate taiwanese tv programs
i hate bah kwa
i hate rich spoilt brats
i hate girls who plays with guy's feelings
i hate guys who play with girls's feelings
i hate chelsea
i hate young punks who smoke and waste their already pathetic life away by doing bicycle sstunts at tampines mall
i hate drivers who thinks they own the road
i hate losing my things
i hate extras
i hate the times when i have too much time but no money to do anything
i hate the days when everything just goes wrong
i hate to be out of love
i hate to be out of money
i hate to be out of time
i hate exams
i hate regrets
i hate toilets that don't flush properly
i hate to clean weapons
i hate to chiong sua
i hate myself



i love to eat
i love to sleep
i love to watch movies
i love to watch tv
i love to surf net
i love to play soccer
i love manchester united
i love money
i love music
i love my family
i love my friends(not in that kinda way)
i love to be lame
i love to be called a loser
i love to slack
i love to talk
i love to drive
i love to look at nice cars
i love to dream that those nice cars i look at are mine
i love to daydream
i love mango
i love apples
i love rojak
i love see hum
i love coke
i love salads
i love the simpsons
i love to rummage thru my fridge in the middle of the night
i love to be loved
i love to love
i love xiao ding dang
i love 35 sce
i love seletar camp
i love u...

Love and hate....2 extremes of emotions.There are a million and one thins which i could love and hate but i have not listed them down because love and hate are somethings that are hard to understand.Love can easily turn to hate but hate can hardly ever turn into loveWhatever it is...hopefully my hate list will shrink and my love list will grow and wish the same for everyone becasue it makes one happier to love and depress to hate...

Young couples are in abundance today on the streets.Be it holding hands, hugging or even kissing on the streets.They are in all sorts of school uniforms and most of them come from junioe colleges.I am not here to condemn them or anything,simply because i was once like them.

Nothing can never replace the sweet innocence that dating during school days brings.It is sweet and it is innocent.Boy loves girl,boy goes after girl and boy and girl becomes an item.After being single for more than a year already,I longed to feel that wonderful feeling of innocent love and courtship again simply because it is so so sweet.I dunno,hopefully my wish will come true

Good Bye Southampton...Thanks for the memories!!!!Kudos!!!

The final day of the season bears no real meaning for me this season.Man U is already confirmed of only a 3rd placing.There's only the FA cup final to look forward to next week.


However,the drama that unfolded today was just dramatic.The words of commentator,Alan Parry,says it all,"Hollywood wouldn't even dare to come up with such a script....because it would be too far fetched"...

4 teams,3 to be relegated,one will stay up.

Norwich seems to have the best chance of staying up.They just need to win and everything will be ok.Their fate is in their own hands.

Crystal Palace needs a win to stay up provided Norwich loses and a draw would suffice if all 3 other teams loses.

Southampton's scenario is roughly the same as palace but abit more complicated,so i wont try to explain.


West Brom seems to have the highest mountain to climb.They need to win no matter what and hope everyone else loses.No one gave them a chance.


At the end of 90 dramatic and wonderful minutes.Man U won!!!!Sorry i had to do that cause i am a die hard Man U fan.Which meant Southampton lost and in a true underdog story,West Brom stayed up and my heart and respect goes out to them.


Norwich can o back to div 1 for all i care,Palace well...all the best.Southampton,sad to see u go,I would have backed u to stay up but just too bad yr opponents today was Man U.


Though i hate to see u go but thats the sad fact of life,at times u make it,at times u don't but impt thing is to bounce back quickly.

Bye and thanks for the memories and hope to see u back in the premiership soon.


Sunday, May 15, 2005

Jammed today at katong and it was a blast.For the first time,LsB was so tight(watever that means...i still cant quite understand its true meaning).Especially starcrossed,it was great to sing and even more wonderful to listen.Made more so by the current emotional status that i am in.It's just super duper emo and it really touched me and made me feel so emotional.


Leaving on a jet plane...
Don't know when she'll be back again...(actually i know but it doesnt go with the song)


Had a bowl of katong laksa after the jam and since they rest don't eat their see hum,all of theirs' was transferred to mine and manz,was it tasty.Tonight is the final day of the EPL season.Thats bad becasue that means no football for 3 freaking months.Sianz.Hopefully,Man U can buck up and not let the fans down next season.


Well...i am starcrossed i guess and that makes me super crossed and hopefully the bad times will just cross and i will not be crossed or starcrossed anymore.


I wanna hitch a ride to the galaxy
beyond my clouded sky,to the stars that i can't see
I just need to find my ecstacy
to fill the light years between you and me

I waited for you so very long
My spacecraft's leaving,I'm still holding on
If you want me
Don't let me go away....
away....


Just something i came up with on this rather sad day.Hopefully things will start to go right from now on.yawnz...time to rest cause its another hitchhiking day tmr.


So long,cruel world....au revoir

Saturday, May 14, 2005

I was reading the book "hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy yesterday".I haven't finished it yet,but the story is about this guy whose house was demolished only to find out planet earth will soon suffer the same fate and he is rescued by his alien friend who is a galatic hitchhiker who hitch a hike from spacecraft to spacecraft around the galaxy.


I wish i could do that.To go hitchhiking thru the galaxy and get away from all the things thats kinda messing up my life right now.My emotions are just pretty much screwed up now.I am depressed and I am lonely.I want to go out and meet some aliens,who knows,the people from Betelgeuse 7 might just be much better than humans on this screwed up planet.No wonder it was scheduled for demolition to make way for a inter-galatic freeway,because earth is worthless anyway the way I see it.


My day was ruined this morning by something when i first woke up and something else had to cme along to ruin it even further,to maybe 100 light years away.No,my house didnt get demolished and no,our planet didnt get demolished either because if it did,u wont be reading this at all.The first something that happened is pretty private so i wont disclose it here,but that already ruin my life about 75 light yrs away already and it had to rain when we would be playing soccer today and it had to stop when the game was cancelled.That ruin it the other 25 light years...oh well,maybe 26 then.Then something in the afternoon,which is also too private,ruined it further,to probably 2 to the power of 957603729385878028473948 light yrs away.So in total,my life today was ruined a total of 101 + 2 to the power of 957603729385878028473948 light years,which is a pretty impressive total of how far my life had been ruined in one day.I think I am second only to ah kow who once had a day ruined a further 957 light years than my impressive record today.


I guess if i put that distance into hitch hiking,I would probably had covered like 2 per cent of the whole galaxy in one day.So,given the way things have been going in my life lately,i might be able to see the whole galaxy within 75 days.ALRITE!!!


Thus,I am inviting anyone who thinks they can ruin my life further to come forward and do it.Then I can exchange the amount of light years ruined for space miles and go hitchhiking thru the galaxy.Looking forward to meeting the jedi people who are at war with some sith people over some stars for the past 3 decades already.Maybe,I might just stay and watch....alone....again.


Well,its time to go out and look for flying saucers and hitch a ride.Hopefully the aliens i meet are nice people.

Friday, May 13, 2005

Today,it was a bad day because of some things which is too private to disclose here.

Today,i watched Amityville horror and it costs me $9.50.Bloody hell,stupid collusion among movie companies.The worst thing is,the movie was a stupid waste of money.I had so much hope and high expectations for it because after all,it was based on the true story of one of america's most haunted houses and thus the potential is super great.However,the pace was very monotone with a scare every ten minutes and u somehow predicted what's gonna happen next.Although it drew some screams from some of the audience and made ah kow cover his eyes for some part,it was a letdown altogether.There was no build up and no climax.It was just monotonous scares along the way and the revelation of wat really happened before the characters moved in was too short and pretty confusing.It didn't answer any questions at all.All in all,it was disappointing....


...disappointing like many aspects of my life.I really wish that things could just go right for me and those around me soon.That we would be happy and that when we meet up,our conversations would be of how great the wek had been for us,instead of our conversations now,how super sucky our week had been.

Attempting to fill in the lyrics for the song risshe and gang composed.Managed to finish it but don't know if i did a good job or not...will post it up once its edited.


To sum up the already sucky day(see wat i mean,everyday is sucky),i got knocked in the face by the door of my house....

I got a small cut just under my eye.....
there is also a small bruise.....
i dropped my ipod which i just got back yesterday.....
OUCH!!!(more because i dropped my ipod rather than the face)


Hopefully thats the end of all my bad luck for tonight and hope that no more stupid things happen for the rest of the night and hopefully rest of my life(yea) and pls pray with me that my ipod dont spoil again.

The next big time won't be the next Singapore idol,nor would it be some "jue dui superstar"(this is crap).It would be LsB.


Wat does LsB stand for?Well..Its the LsBand and frankly speaking,we haven't thought of wat Ls shud be yet because its original meaning is too crude.Also,the band is also on a lookout for a better name.


The band consists of Ken(guitar),risshe(guitar),syarfique(bass),sam(drums),zhihao(part time vocals.part time lyricist,part time sound man,full time supporter) and audrey(part time key boardist and full time supporter)

Don't expect LsB to be a boy band like energy and 5566(which are super super crap ass pple by the way) because LsB isn't.It will be the biggest band to come out from singaPore(give it another 5-10 yrs).


I dunno why i am writing this,i think i am bored and have to much time on my side.Don't take the above too seriously as it is written in the name of fun.Except those i said are crap and crap ass pple...i meant those.


Kudos to LsB!!!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

As i nurse a slight flu now,I remember...

it was raining when i went home last night....
ubin wasn't the way it is now when i last visited it....
i never really fell in love until i was 17...
that when bill clinton was president,the world was generally at peace...
i was a problematic student in primary and secondary school...
i started reading the new paper at age 10...
i started supporting Man U at age 10...
kacang puteh used to cost me 20cents,it's a $1.50 now...
yakult used to come with a to in school...
pri 4 -6 were the toughest time in my time so far in my life becasue of my form teacher...
hougang had a cinema called "sian gong"...
i used to skip classes to go to computer games shops to play king of fighters,$2 for 2 hrs in primary school...
i bowled once in my life and got a score of 38,i was in pri 6...i never bowled ever since...
i got hit by a flying boomerang once in the face...
the president of the old soviet union,gorbachev,had a stupid looking mark on his bald head...
pencil cases that had 101 compartments...
i got chicken pox during sec 4,on the last week of the june holidays...
the first book i read was dragon ball Z no.16 or 17...can't remember the exact number...
i used to go to my cousin's place to play "house" under the table...
the motorola memojazz pager was the hippest thing to have in sec sch...
that handphones weighed as much as a brick last time...
my first crush was on this gal called fiona from plmgss when i was in sec 2...
the main attraction of sentosa was the wax meuseum and not sunset bay...
a mcdonald's sundae was a luxury enjoyed once every 2-3 months...
that heartland mall used to be oriental emporium...
i used to book out on saturday afternoons instead of friday evening...
we used to leave our pager numbers on the bulletin board in the hougang mall foodcourt hoping some girl would page us...no one ever did...
running away when we spot a policeman while playing soccer in the void deck...
my favourite tv show was "gao xiao xing dong" on monday nights...
i used to think all soldiers can drive tanks and fly aeroplanes....
the first cd i bought was played on pepper by mltr...
that mcdonald's used to have this kiasu burger and it was the best burger i ever had...
getting turned out during bmt field camp...
the days when maths deals with numbers,not alphabets...
mavis tution centre...
this tuition mate of mine who i can't remember,lending me 50 cents to take a bus home after tuition because i lost my farecard and have no money...



just some random memories and thoughts...

There is no emotion
There is peace
There is no ignorance
There is knowledge
There is no passion
There is serenity
There is no death
There is the force
- The code of Jedi



Peace is a lie
There is only passion
Through passion
I gain strength
Through strength
I gain power
Through power
I gain victory
Through victory
my chains are broken
The force shall set me free
- The Sith code

No emotion and passion.The 2 things that most of us live for.Emotions like love,love for our family and our friends.Passion for wat u do and wat we love.Live being a jedi must suck big time i guess.They are like monks.No wonder Anakin went over to the dark side

I would have too....


Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Ubin changed alot since the last time i was there.Many roads are blocked and many new buildings are up.Alot of dumptrucks and kobes can be seens and i guess sooner or later it will be ubin new town.With mrs lim living in block 112c of mamam ave 3, #12-34 and going to ubin point ntuc for her shopping.

Think about it,it might just happen given the rate of development.

Went swimming again after ubin because the weather is just nice and it'll be a waste.Ate or jian again and got scolded by my mother for eating it too often.Too much cholestrol.Okok,i think i better stop eating that for a while.Ah Kow la...make me gian.

I hope some Man U officials sees this posting because after seeing them lose 3-1 to chelsea last night,i came up with this list of players to sell and players to buy for nest season so that they can be champions of epl and europe again.

Players to sell...
  • Mikael Silvestre(its time,u suck this season)
  • Louis Saha(unlucky with injuries but even when u r fit,u r not as prolific as when u were at fulham)
  • Both the goalkeepers(wat can i say?u guys should look at videos of yr howlers esp u roy,the ones against spurs and milan)
  • Liam Miller(the next roy keane,i dun think so)
Players to buy...
  • Gattuso(the next roy keane)
  • Carlo Cudicini(he is good and chelsea dun want him) or
  • Jaskelinan(i dunno if i spelt that correctly but the bolton keeper is very good,the only stumbling block may be his age)
  • Fernando Torres(please get him...please) or Andrew Johnson(he is good)
  • Van der Vaart(to match that a**hole arjen robber)
  • Jamie carragher(although liverpool will never sell him,i still pray he goes to man u because he is one of the nest centrebacks in the epl.Hardworking and unassuming.Reliable and gets the job done)
  • ME!!!!(just kidding)

I was introduced to a song recently and its title is called "starcrossed" and its by Ash.I have the lyrics below and if u had already read it or know the song,you know that it is a very very sad and emo song.It is especially so if u watched the mtv for this song.

Its about this guy who looks very forlorn after he thought that his girlfriend had passed away and his thoughts revisits the memories and the good time they shared together.He reaches a church and finds his girlfriend at the front of the church.In shock but at the same time joy,he moves forward to touch her but he hand just go thru her body and thats when this priest walked down the aisle right past thru him.Thats when he realised he is the one who is dead instead of the girl.

In shock yet again,he races out to the cemetary outside the churh and finds his tombstone there.As he sits there crying,the girlfriend is taking poison inside the church,killing herself so that she can be with the boyfriend.Thus the lyrics,"you know that I'd die for you".

In the end,the girl walks out of the church and the two of them sees each other.They look at each other for wat seems like eternalty,not knowing if it is a dream or is it really true.The guy finally put his hand on her shoulder slowly,expecting it to just go thru it......
but it didn't.The girl had died too,for him.They hugged and thats te end of the story.

Though this is a mtv and wat happened could only happened in our dreams or fantasy but do try to have a look at it nevertheless.Its a really nice song and its worth just that little bit of memory on that computer of yours.The lyrics are below so enjoy!



"starcrossed"
Ash


Behold this night, still and clear

You look here just like an angel sleeping
I wish I could ease your fears
I would catch the diamond tears you're weeping
In your eyes I would hide
By your side I could defy
The forces tearing us apart
But reality, as it seems
Looking back, is that our dream
Was fated from the start


Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
To save us from our fate


I'll remain in your hold
Body, mind, heart and soul
As long as I breathe
Though consequence takes its toll
All is out of our control
That's how it will be
So close your eyes my young bride
Listen to me one last time
There's something I have to say
When your faith turns to despair
Always will my love be there
And never fade away


Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
To save us from our fate
You can't save us
You can't save us

Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape
We're condemned and can only wait
At this time now it's far too late
The poison's in our veins
It's true
You know that I'd die for you
You know that I'd die for you
You know that I'd die for you

Forever true
I'll see you through




Tuesday, May 10, 2005

There's a place off ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of cherry street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight



That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

tuesdays with Haoz...Chapter 5: the big red heart


Wat's the big red heart?Its love of course.Sensing that alot of pple around me(myself included i guess) are bothered by this particular emotion lately,i might as well just write it in this week.Hopefully it might give u guys some insight of my thoughts and my feelings towards this particular emotion and that it might help enlighten u guys,and myself i hope,after reading it.


Love comes to all naturally i guess.U don't have to study for it,u don't have to practise it,it is just innate in everyone,even Kim Jong Il(i hope).It starts with an attraction and it slowly evolves into a crush and eventually,u are in love.Love is desired by many,men and women alike,it doesn't matter if u r tall or short,fat or thin,ugly or beautiful...everyone just needs to love and more importantly,to be loved.


Lessons learnt from love are often painful and humilifying.A relationship is never balanced because one party will love the other more and there is never equal love in my opinion.One often expects alot when in a relationship but becomes sorely disappointed when u realised that love isn't wat u had expected.It isn't like in the fairy tales and in movies where the leads always overcome all sorts of obstacles and lives happily ever after.


In reality?


Reality will knock yr head,break yr heart and force u to watch wat u have given being flushed down the toilet bowl.U turn deluded and u look for alternatives like clubbing yrself nuts and drinking yrself silly only to find out that this is not wat u wanted.All u ever wanted was to be loved but u never got it.After all u have given,u think that u deserved a little better,but who cares wat u think,u r just a worthless nobody.


After a while,the pain ceased and u got on with yr life.Enjoying singlehood but at the same time,longing to find that someone who will mend the hole in yr heart.Hope and wait is all u can do and when u tot that u have found that person, u realised that its not meant to be.


Love can change a person.For the better or for worse is another matter altogether.However,sometimes it is all but a facade which time will eventually erode away.


Love is cruel...love is kind...love is love...


there is no explanation or definition for it...


you hard to live with it but impossible to live without it...


i love u but do u love me?

she loves him but does he love her?

So many questions,so many lessons but ultimately when we do find the one,may we be able to live happily ever after.


tuesdays with Haoz...chapter 6...next week

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Woke up this morning and realised it was raining heavily.It had been a few weeks since the last time it rained so heavy,not wanting to give up on this good opportunity to sleep in,I jumped straight back to bed.


I finally awoke at ten thirty and after washing up,sat in front of the tv and watched football extra and made a shocking discovery.


I missed Man U vs WBA last night because I thought that it was tonight.The 2 teams drew and I felt that the team disappointed the fans yet again.


Pretty boring weekend for me really.No controversial issues for me to crap here also.Maybe the astar article did entice me a little.Philip yeo,chairman of astar was featured and he gave his views on bondbreakers and how local scholars should buck up or risk losing out to foreigners.(mainly the PRC and Indian geeks)


The article also showed the startling figure that out of astar's many research institutes(theres around 10 of them i think),only 25% of the research staff are singaporeans and having worked at one of the astar's research institute recently(i2r),i have to totally agree with the figure given.Most of the people i see there are foreigners,mainly from prc and india with a few caucasians and others.Other than the senior management people,most of the other singaporeans in the building are temp staff like myself,secretaries,office staff and cleaning aunties.


Wats happening to our scholars?Those that received their education that was paid for by taxpayers,those who didn't pay a single cent for their freaking education.In the end,they decided to break their bond and in philip yeo's words,"didn't contribute a single cent back".
No wonder he was so peeved.


Come on u so called scholars,stand up and be counted and not let the prc heads get bigger and bigger.I am not as smart as u people but at the the same time not as selfish as u dicks because i dont think i can happily break my bond while PRCs are taking over this industry.



Think about it.

Am I stupid?
Am I dumb?
Am I poor?
Am I weak?
Am I ugly?
Am I evil?
Am I deluded?



Who am I?what the f*ck is wrong with everyone?what the f*ck is wrong with this world?


I am angry,I am f*cking angry


Go to sweet hell u bitter world

Many of my friends around me asked me why i have so much fond memories of the army.Initially i am not sure why but i found out later that its not the army that made me so fond of my NS experience,but rather,it was the people i know that made it such a wonderful time for me.
I was logging on to friendster a moment ago and this testimonial written by paul,a friend i know from the army,just made me feel that the 2 yrs and 2 mths wasn't a waste of my time...




Paul,May 07 2005
ZH was my PC. I won't say anything about
how he was in camp here but I will say
how he is as a friend. Very nice
personality but never really got to see
his real 'outside non-officerly'
character. Oh what the heck! I will tell
you what he is in camp!!! He was first
someone I loathed because I hated
arrogant officers! On his 1st day's
addressing to the platoon, he said
something like "After I graduate from
OCS, I wanted to torture all my men till
they cry" or something like that... but
he didn't because of some reason I
forgot but my impression was "WTF, this
guy is nuts, hell will I co-operate with
this type of officer!" but as time goes
by.. things turned out differently, he
was a PC who listened to his men and
worked out plans to make both commanders
and men feel better about each other
(well, most of the time). He constantly
ask if we have any problems. This was
the kind of PC I'm willing to work with
in the army! Part of my life was under
his command, I'll not forget him.....ever!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Something for u guys to know me better...the numberings are a bit of though

1. Starting Time: 9.58pm
2. Full Name: Chen Zhihao
3. Best Friend(s):Ken,ah kow,brian
4.Sexiest Friend:ermz...dun really have one
5. Funniest Friend(s): ah kow
6. Smartest friends: ervin
7. Dumbest Person: chen shuibian
8. Shyest Friend: chen zhihao
9. Most boring person: me?cause i am bore enuff to do this
10. Who Do you get advice from:alot of pple but ultimately my brain
11. D(ate)O(f)B(irth): 19/11/1984
12. Righty / Lefty : Lefty!
13.Shoe Brand: adidas
14. Do you Crack any Body Parts:knuckles
15. Siblings:
20. Email Addy: marcust125@yahoo.com.sg,planter35@hotmail.com
21. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: dun have
22. Crush: hmm....yes i suppose
23. Liked a Teacher: yep...read my blog
25. Ever laughed so hard you've peed in your pants: NO
26. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: yes...and always lao sai after that
27. Ran Into a Glass Door: no..but saw one loser did and i laughed my ass off
29. Gone Skinny Dipping: no
30. Gotten hit/nearly hit by a car:yes,too many times and once nearly by a boat too
31. Ran into a parked car: no
******Girls Fill Out About Guys******
35. Boxers or Briefs:
36. Tall or Short :
37. Does size matter:
38. Six-pack or Muscular Arms:
39. Body or Personality:
40. Ear Pierced or Not :
41. Sporty or Outdoorsy :
42. Good Guy or Bad Guy:
******Guys Fill Out on girls******
47. G or hipster undies: Hipster
48. Tall or Short : doesnt matter
49. Long Hair or Short : not shorter than mine
50.Dark or Light Eyes:not sore eyes can liao
51. Light/Dark Hair: doesnt matter
52. Body or Personality: personality..i dun wanna be stuck with satan's sister
53. Ears Pierced or Not: doesnt matter
55. Good Girl/Bad Girl: how do u define good girl or a bad girl??
56.Hair Up or Down : IT DOESN'T MATTER!!!(sick of using that answer)
57. Sporty or Classy: definitely sporty
58. Chicken or Not Afraid :IT DOESN'T MATTER!!!(sick of using that answer)
******Which One is Better******
59. Coke or pepsi: coke
60. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: depends
61. Cats or Dogs : i am not into animals but dogs if i have to choose
62. Coffee or Tea :Tea!
63. Eastside or westside: EastSide Rawks!
64. Vanilla or chocolate: CHOCOLATE
65. Cake or Cookies: Cakes anytime
66. Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: purple wat??!!white then
67. Sunset or Sunrise: sunrise,nuthin like a good morning
68. Day or Night: Doesn't matter when u r alone
69. Lights on or off: off..especially in the day...dun waste electricity
70. Summer or Winter: nv experienced any
*****Your favorite******
71. Food: I eat anything and i do mean anything
73. Holiday destination: OLD TRAFFORD MANCHESTER!!!!
74. Radio Station: class 95
75. Place to be: In the arms of my my one true love...when i find her
****** In The Future******
76. Will you believe in God: yes
77. What you want to be when you grow up: Prime minister
******Random Questions******
78. Define Love: Love is Love...theres no explanation or definition
80. Favorite Place to go: Home
81. Favourite day(s) of the week: Fridays and saturdays
82. Bedtime: anytime can be bedtime
83. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back: everyone i guess
84. Satan or God or atheist: God
******More questions:******
85. Do you love someone rite now: hmm...
86. Do you care about someone: I care abt everyone
87. Do you think of someone everyday: yea i suppose
90. finishing time: 10.17pm

I wish...
that I have someone to love...
that I have someone who loves me...
that I can become prime minister some day...
that dreams come true,even daydreams...
that I could sing better...
that I can play for Man U one day,even if that one day is just one day...
that I can make a movie about life...
that I can put a stop to my laziness....
that I am rich...

that eating see hum is heathty...



ermz....thats all for now...so if any of u out there can help me fulfil any of the above wishes please do let me know...(any Man U scouts??)


I went to sleep at 1.30am this morning.An hour later in Eindhoven,PSV took on AC Milan in the champions league semi final second leg.PSV won 3-1 and the score was 3-3 on aggregate and because of the away goal rule,Mialn went thru.
The away goal rule.For the uninitiated,it means that over a 2 legged tie,if any team can score a goal away from home,it would count as double if the aggregate score is tied at the end of the game.Therefore,in last night's game,milan scored the vital away goal 1min into injury time and though it was 3-3,that goal counted as double and milan went thru.
If u had watched the game(I watched the replay),your hearts would definitely have gone out to the PSV.There were clearly the much better side and they displayed a fighting spirit that they can be proud of.In the end,they lost.It was emotional to see grown men cry and I very nearly dropped a tear for them.They were really hard done by the rule and even as a neutral,I couldn't help but feel disappointed together with them.
I could never understand the away goal rule and I think it is stupid ever since the first day it came into effect.Yes,it definitely added a new dimension to the game,injecting a new surge of excitement,but it also broke many hearts that weren't meant to be broken.Like mine years ago when my beloved Man Utd were knocked out of the champions league by leverkusen because of that same rule though we were the better side and more recently,the hearts of all PSV fans this morning.
But i suppose it is here to stay and will break more undeserving hearts in the future.


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A comment was made by ah kow the other day.He said that i am have a story to tell or something to say about almost anything.Come to think about it,i think its pretty true.To pple close to me,i can ramble on and on and on abt anything andthough i may seem aloof to pple i dun know well enough,once u get to know me,u will be praying for me to go back to being aloof because u wont be able to take the crap coming outta my mouth.
Guess tts becasue i have a super good memory for my experiences though i can never put it to good use for my studies.I can remember things that happened in prmary one vividly.I think i will make a good father ot granfather next time,entertaining my kids and their kids with my stories.
However,also due to that reason,some painful memories will also be hard to forget and everytime i am reminded of it,it is as vivid as anything.I dunno if its a blessing or a curse but watever it is,it gives me plenty to talk about.So next time anyone thinks i am aloof,get to know me and u will be begging me to shut up.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

I watched kingdom of heaven today.Its draggy and its draggy and it draggy,very much like how i am dragging this posting now.They talk alot and because of me staying awake this morning to catch the champions league semi,i was trying to keep myself awake and thus could not really understand wat they were trying to tell me.When the fighting and warring finally took place,it looked so much like lord of the rings battle for helm's deep or the battle for gondor and since orlando bloom is also in kingdom of heaven,i actually half expected aragon to lead an army of ghost soldiers to aid him.That didnt happen of course and i left the movie feeling rather ripped of because the price of tickets is now $8,yea...8 f*cking dollars.


Lotsa JC pple walking around tampines mall today and i cant help but wonder is it 3 years already?The youthful look on the young faces of jc students,untainted by the pollution that the army and life which would one day besieged upon them.They looked so happy and so carefree and i cant help but feel envious.



For 96mins this morning,i was awake watching a football match between 2 teams that i dun support.I dun bet on football and i am not suffering from insomnia,so why the hell did i watch it for?
I watched it because i can't resist the temptation of watching chelsea lose.They could have won of course,but liverpool did the job and my i respect that.It wiped the arrogance of the face of jose mourinho and roman abramovich and the underdogs prevailed.
Movies always shows how the underdogs overcome the odds to win like how the most loserish guys in school will always get the girl of their dreams to go to the prom with them in the end and the live happily ever after.
Back to reality pple,the underdogs will remain the underdogs especially in a society like ours.This is especially prevalent in my generation i guess.Those born into a rich family will somehow be the popular ones.Be it with their fancy pencil cases in primary school,the nice football boots in secondary school,the most high-tech handphone in jc or their posh sports cars in university.They seem to have it all,the high society they call themselves.How many time have the rest of us look at them and wonder,"how nice if i were him/her" and sigh when we realise we are not.
There was a time when alot of those around me were talking about their holidays to europe and america and how much stuff their daddy bought them and i could only listen by the side and recall my only overseas trip was across the causeway to JB.Some of these guys are really nice pple though,with no airs and a humble personality and I am glad that some of these pple are my friends.However,the sad part is,alot of them are not like that.
These guys seem to have it all and alot of us,the heartland guys,always lament of we can never have wat they have.But guys,come on,we do have something they dont have.The heartland way of life.Though its less prevalent now,but remember the days of playing at the "see-saw",swinging on the swing till we r so high up and we jump off,playing catching or just football with slippers as goalpost under the hdb flats and running away at the sight of the policeman(it doesnt apply to all k).
Well,i guess despite of all those we are still the underdogs and until our government embrace communism(which will never ever happen),we will stay underdogs and smile everytime the rich and powerful loses to the underdog like how chelsea lost to liverpool last night.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

tuesdays with haoz:Chapter 4..."First to bata,then to school"
No,I am not here to promote Bata to everyone.But I guess most of my generation of kids have heard or seen the slogan above before.The buying of new shoes before the start of a new school year.Remember the days when your mother would jostle with other aunties at the school's bookshop to be at the front of the queue to buy school textbooks for u.U stand there with other blurry-eyed kids your age sipping slowly at that packet of "not so sweet" lemon tea and thinking of the mischiefs u r about to commit in the coming school year.
Well,those were the days huh,I guess its pretty obvious I am gonna write about school life,its gonna be a pretty long posting but take yr time to enjoy it because I assure u,u will like it.
Primary school....
Remember the days when cute school bags and pencil cases that have 101 compartments ruled the classroom.Where 'tok ka' and catching were the standard recess activities(I came from a boys school so forgive me if i do not know wat gals do k:)) and when a bowl of noodles costs 50 cents.Well,thats primary school I guess and in my 6 years in montfort junior school,I come away with valuable experiences which I would like to share.Some are funny,some are painful but I guess all are great.
1.I came from a chinese speaking family.The only english I knew before kindergarden was only the alphabets and thats abot it.How bad was it?Well,on my first day of primary school,we were told to write our names on the excercise book.I couldn't understand a thing that came out of the teacher's mouth and so I just do but all boys do well in,copy!I looked over the table and did wrote wat the guy next to me wrote..."yeo min hao..".It was then that it struck me that NAME is name!something my mom taught me just the night before when I was too restless to remember.
2.I was never the role model student.In fact I was a constant pain to the teachers I guess.I have not much recollection of primary 2 and 3 except that my primary 3 form teacher always loses money from horse racing and that bookies will come in their thick gold chains in the middle of the lesson to collect money from him and they will disappear and we will have a free period.
From Pri 4-6,I have a terror of a teacher and her name is Miss Sim Ai Koon.She made me hate school so much more than I already did.Canings were a daily thing.I would be considered lucky if i got caned less than 10 times a day.For me,the standard would be around 50 per day.Why?Well,like i said before,I was never a good student.I was lazy and restless in class,and she used to give piles of homework a day which I could never finish.So they just pile up and up and up.I would hand in screwed up work and she would just tear them apart and I would have to redo them again,not before she gives me a good caning.She used to tell me that she would rather spend 1 sec tearing my work apart than spending 2 hrs marking my work and making her vomit blood.My life was at an all time low then,I did my homework late into the night with my hands swollen from the canings.I began to loathe school and started playing truant to avoid hell.So bad that i was called to the principal office 3 months before PSLE.He did not scold me or reprimand me and I was pretty stunned when he actually offered me sweets and talked to me nicely.
I guess that worked and I went back to school after that.Miss Sim just told me this:"I am not going to give u homework until PSLE.To me,u r invisible in the class and its up to u to decide how much u want to learn."I didn't complain because for the first time in 3 years I managed to focus and really get down to studying instead of playing catching up.I was stripped of my prefectship(hard to believe i was one huh) and i really enjoyed my new lease of life and in the end I left primary school with a psle score of 240.
Secondary School...
Secondary school days were hard to forget.Teenage angst and puberty ruled.Football was a daily thing.Other boys would go down to shopping malls to pick up girls from other schools but me...I would head straight down to the field after school.Playing until it was time to go home for dinner,rain or shine.There were also many nice things to talk about during my secondary school life which i spent in montfort secondary but i think i will just share the best of them.
1.I would often go to school with shoes that have alot of holes in them which are often brown rather than white and pants that are patched over and over again.This was due to playing football in a desert like school field.No matter how hot it was,we would be there,something that i cannot understand till now.My uniform would be wet from perspiration and people would not sit beside u on the bus home if they have a choice.Though tired and dirty,no one complained and it happens all over again the next day.
2.I was never an english speaking kid.My english grades were often mediocore and i just cant seemed to improve.That changed in secondary 3 for me.
How?Simple.I had a crush on my english teacher.
Her name was Miss Angela Tan,she was not pretty and not gorgeous.She was just sincere and caring and I guess I like that point.English lessons soon became my favourite lessons and i strive to do well in my english to impress her.Looking back,it was pretty silly but then i was i just wanted her to recognise who i was.My english improved tremendously and I became the "potato" people know me by since then.Though she stopped teaching me english in sec 4(she became my geog teacher in sec 4)I continued to do my best in english and in the end i managed to score an A1 for 'O' levels(though i pretty much screwed up my GP in 'A's but it was pretty good all the time until 'A's).
3.Boys school are full of teenage boys with raging hormones and once in a while,a certain vcd would surface in class.Those would be the odd days where they will be no soccer as everyone would be at someone's house to watch the vcd.I dont think i have to tell u what it contains .
4.Fights were a common thing in my school.I myself fought a couple of times.I guess it looks silly now as we fought over things like spilled 100 plus and chocolates but then,it was like a reputation thing,not wanting to look weak,we would challenge each other to a fight.The class,instead of breaking the 2 guys up,would chant "FIGHT,FIGHT,FIGHT!!" and everyone would wait anxiously for recess where the whole class and often the whole level would gather in the toilet to watch.It was not just slapping and pushing around but punches and kicks were exchanged often leading to a bloody mouth or nose.I took my first punch in my first fight and boy,did it hurt.However i won because that idiot slipped and fell and i just went over to kick him until out form teacher showed up.So there we were pretending to pee and comb hair with a bruised jaw(me) and a bloody mouth(him).
But i guess there was nothing malicious.It was just things that teenage boys do.I never bore a grudge against anyone i fought before and we become good friends again 2 hours after the fight,as do everyone else.
Like my principal said then,"there is no honour in six people beating up one fella,if u want to fight,do it one on one with hard punches and kicks but make sure any grudge is forgotten after that."
5.Being neighbourhood kids that we were,we never really cared about wat other people think of us.We live by our own sets of rules then and and never envied anyone from the better schools because we know we r better than them in our own way.Life was simple and I never had complications of the heart to deal with.Though alot of my friends have their so called "stead" then and i admit that i wish i had a "stead" too but i know i just cant get into a relationship without making a full commitment.Just give me my football and my friends and I would be contented.
Junior College dayz...
Serangoon Junior College was my destination for my post sec sch education.For the first time since kindergarden,i was studying with girls.It was a huge culture shock for me,not that i was complaining though.I made alot of great friends and had my first relationship in jc.it was definitely one of the best times of my life.
1.After wearing white and blue for ten yrs,i finally changed to wearing the biege and brown of srjc.Sick of the tight fitting uniforms which my first 3mths classmates love to make fun of,i bought uniforms that are a few sizes bigger for life in srjc.My shirt was XL and my pants were 33 even though my waistline was 28 then.Its all about looking cool because if i had bought the correct size,i would have looked like a nerd.
2.One can never study well in the study area of srjc.Students throng there in groups after school to socialise and talk cock.Especially during 1st 3 mths,much to the ire of the seniors who are really trying to study.Pictures were taken there and dai dee were played there.Alot of things were done there and studying seems only to be done when the exams are coming.
3.Crappy friends are a must.I would have never made it through jc without my crappiest of crappiest friends.People like ah kow,kenneth,alex.brian,risshe and many many more.Remember the times we did the odac cheer just outside the canteen.Or the times we would hide in LT 4 before a certain lecture and scare people coming in.Those were really the days man.
Guess i'll wrap up chapter 4 here.Just wanna bring back some memories of days gone by and though somethings might look stupid now but hey,it sure was fun doing it last time.Well,till next week,adios amigos!

Its 1.40 am....


Shops are closed....


People are sleeping....


Somewhere,soldiers are training...


Me?....


Well,I am blogging...


For?...


For a channel to express myself...


A place I can seek solitude...


A place to be remembered...


Cause when I pass on...


Shops will still open,People will wake up and soldiers will...well soldiers will continue training...


Life goes on,the music will play on...


I will become that friend who passed on last week...


Soon....

Sunday, May 01, 2005

In today's simei open,"odac united" defeated "VS city" 2-0 in the opening match with zhihao grabbing a brace.

In the second game,"odac united" were beaten 1-2 by "ahbengs 'we action action but cannot really play soccer' rovers".Zhihao opened scoring with a world class goal before the ahbengs came back and scored 2.

Proceeded to change training location after realising we were heavily outnumbered by "ahbengs rovers".settled on this bb court nearby.Had a tiring game cause i am not as fit as i think i am.Tripped while trying to kick a ball but ended up kicking the ground instead...%^$&*#@

Kudos to thermal imaging technology!

A note to couples making out anywhere...check nearby bushes for bangladeshi commandos(const workers) for they mite be using their expert camouflage skills to catch u guys while u pple are in the heat of action.

Also,never make out when a police coast guard ship is around...trust me.

Odac United proceeded to Ben's Palace for a cool swim after game.The conversations that took place there goes roughly like this:

arman:remember tt time at....mr goh is a wimp...fahmy sux...


zhihao:yah yah...hahaha...oh yah...tt time fahmy got burnt!


Everyone:hahaha....yea yea....great thing to happen


ahkow:hahaha...i did this...i did that...haha...fahmy sux


Odac United then went for a well deserved lunch at KFC after that.Not the supposed carbo meal we r supposed to take but wat the heck.This time,conversations goes roughly like this:


ahkow:...my pc ah...screwed up...officers sux...


arman:yea yea...officers sux...


Everyone:...oh yah oh yah...officers sux...OCS = Only Clowns Survive...hahahaha


zhihao:.......

Cost of a 2LT who does nuthin everyday except go canteen:$970




Cost of ah ho's bah peng cooked in a wok unwashed in years:$3.50



Cost of teh peng made with buzzing flies company:$1.00



Look on my face when i realised i ran out of toilet paper:Priceless!!!

For everything else outside army,theres the Pink i/c.

Today,thru out the day,i spotted a lot of pple wearing the blue of chelsea with the words,fly emirates so prominently displayed.It just brings my mind back to a few yrs ago or even last year when u would be even lucky to see one person wearing the chelsea jersey the whole week.As chelsea has already clinched the league title and preparing for their champions league semi-final(which i hope they lose).They are,though i hate to admit it,the team of the moment,but its not to say they are the best cause they aren't.
But my point is the sharp increase in pple supporting chelsea this yr.Wat?they were closet chelsea fans all along?i dun think so.In my opinion,these pple were probably arsenal fans last yr and Man U fans before that.There is no wrong in wanting to support the winning team,to be associated with the losers instead of the losers.But these pple are the ones that jump from one winner to another.I would dare say if portsmouth become champions next season,u would find the same pple wearing portmouth next season.
I support Man U since 1994.That season they were runners up to blackburn at the end of the season,they were not champions.However,they became champions yearly after that and many pple would say i was a fairweather fan and there was even a point in time where i was also wondering if i was one.However,recent seasons proved that i was not as i remained loyal to Man U thru one of the toughest period since I started supporting them.It hurts when they lose and for pple like myself and brian,we bleed deep red when that happens.Wat happened to our "fellow Man U fans" from a few seasons back?they are not cursing the team they USED TO "support dearly" and singing the praises of chelsea now.
U pple just makes me sick!fair weathered fans of football.It speaks alot about yr loyalty to pple also.These pple are like the friend of a good friend of mine.This friend of mine have a group of very close friends since school days.They went thru happy times and often depressing times together.However,one person in the group recently found new friends,who are rich,interesting and comes from a "cool School".This person always liked to be cool and be seen,be "happening",and so he actually left his old friends out of a job opportunity and called his new friends to join him.He even told pple that the new friends are more interesting to be with.My friend got wind of this and so does the rest of the pals,they met the news with disgust and anger,thinking how he could say such things and how he could even feel that way after so many yrs.However they hide their feelings whenever they are with that person,so as not to ruin the friendship even though deep down inside they are hurt.
So is supporting the current winning team that important? just like is it so important to be with the "happening" pple and forget about yr boring old friends of years?
I dunno,I have always been loyal to my friends and i say that with a clear conscience.(Even when i was attached i try to meet up with u guys ok...ah kow!i henpecked mah like u guys said).I just need pals i can talk cock with and play soccer with,the kampong boys...though all of us are unglam but we have a good time.
I think cool and happening friends may interest u for a while but the true friends are the ones who stay with u thru the shit.Just like how we should stick with our team thru the shitty times.Cause when the team finally flourish,the satisfaction will never be topped by anything else in the world.