Happy And Orgasmic pageant 2006...the guys
guess now is the time where pageants are happening everywhere and looking at posters of beautiful pple everywhere doesnt make pple like me who are ugly and plain looking feel any better...so here is a pageant of my own tt pays tribute to the everyday pple like me and you...
M1 Ah Kow
a cute and bubbly personality with a heart of gold.a true buddy in every sense of the word.single available and very desperate...hahaha...so girls out there do take note eh...vote for M1 ah kow
M2 Kenneth
Probably the only one who would actually be considered for an actual pageant. However the belly could be a problem during the beach wear part...hahaha.Another true buddy and great friend.respect!cut down on the bahkwas man!vote for M2 kenneth!
M3 Risshe
Mao mao, the hairest of the lot in this pageant, close friend and great buddy as well.u know wat they say abt hairy guys but sorry ladies he is taken.making money is his forte and soon to be featured in some entrepreneurship mag eh...haha...though the belly is a problem still but then again it happens to the best of us.haha
vote for M3 risshe!
M4 Benedick
affectionately known as ben ben...to me at least...haha.anyway,really nice guy and a great great friend, pretty good soccer player as well and yes he is available(i think).funny take on life sometimes but offers sound advice so do vote for him eh...M4 Benedick!
M5 Brian
mr commando here is a irritating piece of shit and can be such an ass sometimes tt u want to strangle him but thats wat makes him even more of a great friend.never one to mia when help or a listening ear is needed. Fortunately for u girls out there...he is taken!hahaha...vote for M5 brian lim!
M6 Hao
nuthin much to say here...no looks no money and no charisma...loser in every sense of the word...but still hoping to find tt special someone...haha...but wat the heck...vote for me as well!M6 Hao!!!
i didn't choose to
it happened last year and it was a bitter pill to swallow.watching the thing u want badly being taken away from u in front of your very eyes cuts the heart in a way tts beyond pain.worst part of all is that theres no running away and there is no hiding place,u face your loss every day and try to pretend its normal but deep down inside it hurts like hell.as time goes by it seems manageable but not because the pain went away but i am already numb.
this year it seems like its going to happen again,i didnt choose to be part of it but choices is something fate would never give u.and so i am really amazed at how unlucky i can be and how long more i can keep it up,i am really really tired and burnt out already...
cut me some slack
stuck in a moment
i feel like i have been stuck in the same moment since 2 years plus ago.probably ken and kow and risshe will know wat i am talking about.i've realised alot of my unhappiness stemmed from the fac that i am stuck here, right here in this moment.no matter how crappy happy or cheerful i may look i am hollow on the inside and it had been like tt for a while already i guessed.
time is really something tt travels fast,much faster than light i assure u.days of 17 and 18 seemed like only yesterday and at 22 it seems that i had yet to grow up,i still feel like a 19 year old,think like one as well i supposed.but the sad fact is that reality bites and in a matter of 2 years the full extent of society will be upon me but seriously i dont think i am ready.then again i was never ready for alot things but when they came along i think i did pretty well handling them.i cant sit still for 10 mins and here i am looking at years sitting behind a desk typing into a computer.
sometimes i am dying to just peek into the future to see wat lies ahead for me but was fearful that things might change once i see it.i am not fearful that i see a bad future because i believe i can take it in my stride.wat i fear is that i see something wonderful and because of me seeing it changes and that something wonderful becomes nought.
so it seems i am back at square one, still stuck in this moment i cant get out of...
at least the epl is coming back...
for wat?
sitting at the lobby a sudden sense of isolation overwhelmed me. Even though there were hundreds of pple walking around and about but it seems like the whole world had left me out.Groups sit and talk among themselves, groups that i dont belong to and fit in at all.It was only then i realised that pple i can talk to are not around, not because they are not there but either they are busy with other things or are just not around anymore.I tried breaking into the groups but all i get is a brickwall response, a shot thru the heart with a poison arrow.For wat am i doing this?wouldnt it be better to be free from all responsibilities and able to fit in.Why carry all the burden and find myself getting brickwall responses.
Invisible among a sea of pple.The fact remains that i am there and alive, yet i feel like i wasnt.
Sure,
i couldnt mingle around
i couldnt be there all the time
i am the one to ask you guys to come down for things u dont wanna come for
i am the one to nag
i am the one to wake you up when u needed sleep most
i am so sick and tired of doing this job in a place where no one appreciates anything.In this world where everything is about glory and about pple who seems more fun.I am the one to break up all the fun and find no pride in anything i do anymore.
i am losing my fucking sanity
save me
