Memoirs of a confused mind

craving for a biscuit

remember 3 years ago in brunei when we were on a topo mission in the jungle and we got lost.things started out so promisingly and confidence was high but somehow we ended up lost within the first 4 hrs.the feeling of not knowing where to go and wat to do simply sucked. it comes to a point when the objective is no longer important and all you want is to just get out of it hoping to stumble upon yr checkpoints along the way. there came a point where we were stuck in this valley with no apparent exits and the rain started pouring on our beaten bodies and soul.it was a moment of despair and one of desperation that begs the question of "where do you do when you realised you are going nowhere?"...

present...

same kind of situation but in a very different sense. i thought i knew the path, i thought all i have done was enough but in the end i ended up lost again. the route to your heart is like a winding path which leads to unexpected deadends and they are all over the place. backtracking only ends up in getting even more lost than before and the emotional burden is getting heavier with each passing day. what started out so brightly with thoughts of you and me ended me in that exact same valley, emotionally, i was in 3 years ago, feeling cold and tired with seemingly no more paths to take. how do i unlock and find the rite path to your heart?...

...all hopes seems lost even as our signal sets bail out on us in the thick vegetation.i sat down pondering my fate and wondering if we are going to just rot here when a chocolate biscuit appeared in front of my face..."nah...take" were the words of eric chia kim hock. it may be just a small piece of chocolate biscuit from our combat rations pack but it meant so much at that particular moment. a sudden sense of warmth and hope filled up my heart once again and i took it with gratitude.it was a moment i will never forget. at that exact moment(yes its dramatic but i assure u its all true), someone shouted "eh found a way out liao!" and somehow the rain stopped and sunshine came pouring thru the thick foilage.somehow it was like something wanted us or me at least to learn a lesson but at least we made it out in the end...


where is my biscuit this time?

posted by haoz @ 11/06/2006 10:18:00 AM