6 a.m notes of emptiness
2 years ago...i was sitting outisde tangs listening to ryan lim talking about the girl he was after in ntu hall 6 over a cup of mcdonald's sundae. he told me all the things he did for the girl but no matter how hard he tried and no matter wat he did, nothing was reciprocated but the girl seemed to gotten closer to another guy somehow.he finally decide to confess his love for that girl and this is the reply he got
"its not enough to be sincere and touch someone's heart...its simply not enough"
his eyes went watery when he told me that and at that point in time i really dont know wat to do except over him my strawberry sundae.
present...
found myself in a exact similar situation as him and those words just kept going over and over and over again in my head.wat is the use sometimes? of doing so much and investing so much effort.been watching too many shows i guess.in shows its always enough to be nice and sincere but come on, in reality thats utter bullcrap.so wat if the other guy is an asshole of a jerk who only talks to girls and spends every other nite with some girl or another. doesnt she sees that when she is not around, he just finds another girl to be with?the answer is a sad fucking no.she sees nothing and i guess this is wat they mean when they say love is fucking blind and i tell u its fucking deaf and fucking retarded as well.waking up at 6am every week just to place something in hope of brightening up her day but wat the fuck la, wats the point at the end of the day i wont be the one she would be talking to,instead she would talk to the other guy.even when she does talk to me all i get are often one word answers. FUCK IT!!!if blind is wat it is then so be it.of he is who u want then so be it,i am fucking sick and fucking tired of waiting.oh i got no time...but u ended up playing badminton with him..."oh we play singles" and i cant even get half an hr to have lunch.over beers and chips i've been warned,she is a CT but i always let my feelings get the better of me but after seeing what i had seen i realised that i should just let go...so be it
hope u are happy
posted by haoz @ 10/04/2006 02:09:00 AM
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